PLEASE! Give me a freak'en break! Last week I ran out of bagels and most of my take to work lunch ideas. I didn't go shopping because I'm telling myself I no money. Then how can I afford take out everyday totally $44.73. I am in my over draft and yet I contunue to spend money on crap, on high fat foods, and on STUPIDNESS!!! This has got to stop.. I need to go shopping and get some proper food in the house. If not I will see a gain this week and I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!!

Along with the take out, I didn't exercise either today. I need to get back on track!

TODAY!

(well, this was supposed to be written on Tuesday and I got lazy so I am writing this on Wednesday morning after I have already eaten a bagel with cheese, and butter with a Lg Ch Milk.

SO FROM NOW ON I AM BACK ON TRACK! Yes I have to buy lunch again today but it will be a healthy and point friendly lunch!)

And I feel great! We thought we walked furter then we had but that is okay 10 is good. Tomorrow I am going to try for 12km for the rest of the week and then next Monday I hope to be up to 15km. I think that would be too cool.

Okay so my eating was not all that great today. I had a lg (2cups) of Ch. milk at 6pts, the bagel from Timothy with cheese and a little bit of butter that I think is like 12pts. I could be wrong but I really don't know. Then I didn't eat all day till I came home because I wasn't hungry and I had a 12inch meat sub (I guess there was my veggies for the day) at 10pts?. I also had an apple after my walk at 1pt. So as I guess I think my day turned out to be 29 points. And if I really look at what I ate I ate very poorly.

I have to get back to drinking my water as well, I am so lacking in this department.

Well that is really all I have to write about today. So I will leave my blog with is...We became friends in face book today!!!

Woo Hoo I am down to 233.6 that's a loss of 2.2 pounds this week. I am so happy I am finally losing again. But I am disappointed that on Friday I caved and took out the scale and weighted myself. I need to only look at the scale on Sunday mornings that's it! And this should not be up for discussion.

I will be back later and hopefully blog about my great 12km walk.

Well I'm back and have nothing to show for it. I road my bike to J's soccer game and back and that took all of 15 minutes (7.5 there and 7.5 back) I am so not impressed with myself at all.

But I have to talk about how my day was. First B called at 6am to say Hi and to tell me to have a good walk with the cancer group. (I wish he called to say I love U but that would never happen.) Anyhow the cancer group walk and boot camp was cancelled due to father’s day so I asked my friend on Saturday if she wanted to walk first thing Sunday morning (no I haven't learned anything yet). And of course she said yes. Well after B called I fell back to sleep and got up at 10am (man this is late for me!!) Did I get up to the phone ringing NOPE! Did I get up to the doorbell NOPE! I got up on my own. So when I got up I thought if she doesn't call me I am leaving and going on my own. Of course she called, asked me to go here and there with her but she had to go to her aunts and her parents and then had to come back home so walking was out of the question. WHY didn't I just go alone? I don't know. Instead I staied.... Made French Fries and chicken balls.

Then my sister called and asked me if I was still coming to the soccer game. I told her I just had to shower and then I will be there so go ahead with out me if you have too. PLEASE! I LIED! A FAT UGLY LIE! Sure I had to shower but more importantly I had to wait for my French Fries and chicken balls to cook. But then something hit me, not hard enough to stop me but... I started thinking why am I waiting, why don't I just turn off the stove and leave, why do I want this anyhow, why, why, why?? Well even trying to talk myself out of it, it didn't work. So I put then in a plastic bowl and ate them on my way to my parent’s house. After I was done, I thought well I didn’t eat all the fries and if I really looked it the portion size I had my “old fat me” would have laughed as there really wasn’t a lot in the bowl. But then I had a hamburger at the soccer game because I love hamburger and everyone else was having one. For dinner we went to my uncle’s house and because they started eating before we got there, there was next to no food left so I didn’t over eat… okay well maybe I did on the bread but it was small yummy bread.

So there was my day I did NO walking, next to NO exercise and a not so good eating day. Tomorrow can’t come fast enough.

I will leave my blog with this tonight: recognizing that I was over eating today is a big step in my journay. Next time I hope to be strong enough to listen to myself.

Well seeing how it is almost Sunday as I write this I have dig deep in to my brain to talk about yesterday and today. Seeing how they were both very interesting I don't think I will have a problem. I have been lazy, and not in a computer mood so that is why I didn't write yesterday.

Okay here we go...Day 6 (Friday)
Man I felt so skinny/small today. I walked to get lunch for the office crew with a guy who I really like and I didn't feel weird at all. I actually felt really good about myself. We talked about a lot of different things but mostly about what we like to do (kinda like things in common) with out really giving it that title. Man I love my new lifestyle. The eating better, the new found actives, the fact that I can walk really fast with G and still keep up a conversation now that's progress!
Lets see what else happened today. Oh I finally took the picture of B and I off face book. I really should have taken it down a long time ago. I just kinda thought that if I was going to seek out a new relationship I might as well start fresh. And I have to say it felt good!

On to… Day 7 (Saturday)
Oh man I was so mad today. I e-mailed boot camp trainer yesterday and asked him if we are still meeting if it rains. I didn’t hear anything back from him. When B left for work today it was raining so I decided to stay in bed and not take Jackson for a walk. When I did get up at 9am it wasn’t raining out but I would not of had enough time to walk Jacks and then get to boot camp L I was not a happy camper. So I ended up taking Jacks for a walk here, then to a conservation area, and then to J’s soccer fun day for a few hours before I went to work. We had a really good day and for the most part we were outside all day.
On my way to work I couldn’t decided what I wanted to eat on the train. I am not interested in fast food anymore. So what I decided was better then anything. I decided to leave so late for the train that I was rushing and there would be no possible way I could stop and get food. I did how ever get a slice of pizza with dipping sauce at work. Not bad because I know I if I would have stopped before work I would have eaten twice and we all know I don’t need it.

I have to say over and above I had two really good days, I hope tomorrow is just the same if now better.

I will leave this blog with this… Even if B and I are no longer together as a couple but we still share the house it doesn’t mean I can’t go fine love somewhere else. As for one day this house will sell and we will part ways. But we will always remain friends.

Well today started out like every other day. I had a good breakfast, an even better lunch and then I went home. For dinner(as much as could and should have made a better choice and didn't) I had a big mac combo with fries and half of my DBF fries. OMG what was I thinking. Then to top off my night, are you ready for this!!! I didn't tell my friend that I already had McDonalds and we went to a ice cream place. If you didn't see me eat it, then no one will know and I can eat more!!!. I have to be honest, if she wanted to go out for dinner I might have gone. That bad, I know.

I have to go to bed, I can't keep my eyes open. I will leave my blog with this...How much food can one person really eat in a day.